Checking In

I realize that I may be talking (writing?) to an empty room, but if there’s anyone out there still reading I thought I’d give an update of what I’m up to. Life got extremely busy this summer with school, work, and being ready to pop, so I pushed blogging to the way-back burner. (Also, my ankles went from a little puffy to nonexistent, so showcasing pictures of myself grew less and less appealing.)

Since then, my life has gotten even busier, but in the best way. On Thursday, August 15 I gave birth to my precious son, Jona Lee. I won’t bore you with details of my whole birth story, because most of it was pretty uneventful. Waiting… so much waiting. Thankfully, everything went smoothly up until the end. My stubborn little guy was positioned in an awkward way and didn’t want to come out, so I had to have an emergency C-section. I panicked when my doctor told me that news, and I tried to protest. After all, a C-section wasn’t what I envisioned for Jona’s birth, and frankly, I was scared to death. However, when he told me that Jona was showing signs of distress and needed to come out ASAP my protestations came to a halt. I realized that I just wanted a healthy baby, no matter how he came out. And I’m overjoyed to say that is exactly what I got. One healthy, sweet, stubborn little boy.

Have I mentioned he is stubborn? He’s a little fighter. He fought breast-feeding, and I had to switch to bottle-feeding him a mixture of formula and breast milk. He fights sleep. Sometimes, it seems like he even fights happiness, because boy can he wail (and he does…pretty frequently). Motherhood has been the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything. In the past six weeks I’ve felt a mixture of exhaustion, frustration, and self-doubt, but more than all those I’ve felt so much love. I can’t stop looking at his sweet face, and taking picture after picture of all his little expressions. And those chubby cheeks! I want to kiss them every second. What can I say, I love my little fighter.

Chances are I won’t be able to blog much (or at all) anytime soon. I thought I was busy with work and school, but now with a baby in the mix free time will be a thing of the past. I wanted to post an update though, in case you thought I fell off the planet. Also, I’ll take any excuse to show off baby pictures. (Which you’ve seen plenty of if you follow me on Instagram: I’m @shealennon.)

I miss blogging and I hope to return one of these days when life isn’t so crazy. I’m not quite sure when that will be, so thanks for your patience! Have a wonderful fall! (And if you have a blog, chances are I'm still reading. Thanks for the constant inspiration!)